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i like where we are.
Perfect song for today (:
i know its bad, but i havent been to school in 3 weeks! My drivers test is in two weeks, i have a driving lesson on wednesday, since i missed a week of class, the best that ill finish the two science courses is till the first week of february. vince and i are doing well. its just been a drag going to school now. work is AMAZING im just in a dilema about stupid pizza pizza! well…i just need to go to school tomorrow! i mean NEEEED! lol i cant miss anymore classes!
its 12am in the morning, listening to miley cyrus “look at you” and i cannot sleep with countless thoughts roaming through my mind about the new year, to be more specific, JANUARY! its only 24 hours away! and i have such a mind full of things that needs to be done before january actually ends…lets start shall we? i mean, i should just jot it down all here just so i can get it off my chest right? lol alright..
-G2 LICENCE- i seriously need to call my driving instructor asap! actually tomorrow sounds good right? will do!
-finish gr12 bio and chem by the end of jan!
-finish gr12 english by the 3rd week of jan!
-apply for gr11U math at night school!
-pay off day school by end of jan!
-quit job after the fifteenth of jan!
thats what i got so far….im sure it will be updated when i wake up later today…but yea.. oh boy..its gonna be one crazy month!
in the beginning of 2009, i told myself that i wanted this year to be MY year..graduate from MW, go to prom with my boyfriend, finish driving school and get my g2, start university in september and live right on the plan….along with family, boyfriend, friends and loved ones….NOT to my surprise, those plans changed….i did graduate, i did go to prome, i did finish driving school..but the plans for university faded into air… i tell myself its a blessing in disguise, allowing me to recollect myself and realize what i really want to do with my life…i came to a conclusion when the summer ended, and to my surprise, i chose the path my mother took, and thats nursing…i know ive got it this time, because im more excited about it than i was with my past choice which was psychology. now, im attending day school and taking the science courses that i didnt take in highschool, going to night school for upgrading my english mark, and later planning on taking another night school course for maths. ASIDE that…..i have a work 3 nights a week, nighschool twice a week and one day free. talk about a hectic year that caught me by surprise…now, its the end….december..actually christmas…and if i can be boldly honest, im am VERY dissapointed on how christmas eve was spent, how CHRISTMAS DAY WAS SPENT and not looking forward to it, but how my NEW YEARS EVE will be spent……working christmas eve, stayed home and did absolutley NOTHING….the family was split into their own rooms doing their own thing, no christmas dinner, not opening presents together in the morning, nothing like that….everything’s changed…i thought the moment i turned 18, it would just be me who changes, but actually…everything did..and it just so happens that my eyes opened to this change at the END of the year….it be bluntly honest..i hated this christmas…..truly i did…i hated the fact that family parties were not happening..that i had to miss countless lunches and dinners with friends and boyfriend + family….im….im just disappointed..and im…..upset….is it wrong to feel this way during christmas? i mean? really………..ive come to a conclusion….i want 2010 to come..and i want it to come now! i wanna start strong and bold this year..its a new me..its a new life..its the NEW YEAR…..i refuse to feel this way again on christmas, or any holiday in fact..i will not be held back just because issues within the family arise..call me selfish.but….christmas 2009 was definitley not going into my books this year…can you believe it? no tree? no christmas dinner? no family pictures? NOTHING!….dear 2009..lets fastforward and start 2010 afresh and different…family is family..dont get me wrong..but….if family allows me to feel the way that i do….then…..give me the definition of that…whatever it is….its time to change..its time to realize..and 2010 will definitley be MY YEAR…19th birthday…..RYERSON UNI!….g2! what else can i ask..here we go…im ready!
just had my 18th birthday, the year that ive been looking forward to and the year that i expected to be the best year of my life….i dont feel old, i dont feel….any different…funny huh? all the fuss for nothing lol…..to the people who went through all the trouble to give me a surprise birthday party, i love you all… you guys are truly a blessing to me and im so happy that i was able to spend this special day with you all=) truly…truly…blessed..
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were
meant to be there… to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or
help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who
these people may be but when you look eyes with them, you know that every
moment that you are with them, they will affect your life in some profound
way. And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible,
painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, will power or heart.
I believe that the people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create who you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from…. In fact, they are probably the most important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally not only because they love you, but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things.
Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again. Let yourself fall in love, even if it doesn’t seem right because you are too young or too far, just follow your heart. Surround yourself with those who make you smile, laugh, and make you happy.
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